I Got This
It's a phrase we hear often, but perhaps we don't say it much, if at all. We hear it in movies and on TV as characters confidently reassure their families, friends and coworkers that all is well because, "I got this".
Until recently, I almost never said it, because I never felt that sure about anything I was doing. Maybe it's growing older and maturing, or finally doing something during the day that allows me to contribute positively to the world. Maybe it's the recent surge of songwriting I've experienced that's resulting in overtly-inspiring and happy-sounding stuff. Whatever the reason, I've found myself saying I've got a handle on things more and more.
Crossing the 30 line undoubtedly changed my perspective and gave me peace of mind. I'm learning to put aside the worries that plagued me so frequently in my early 20s and embracing the mindset that, 'if it won't matter a couple years from now it's not worth worrying about'. And honestly, that accounts for probably 90% of what I do every single day.
Except on the days where I'm creating music like a mad woman, which has been common lately. I woke up from a lull, a period of time where I just had no energy or inspiration to create anything. And I'm suddenly back in a routine that sees me sitting at the computer for hours at a time, scribbling notes on random pieces of paper and experimenting with melodies that aren't predictable and putting new life into demos I started a long time ago. I forget to eat, to go to bed at a decent hour, all so I can obsessively improve my work. I live for this.
I usually feel like my current in-progress tracks have a special spark, and it's no different this time. But something else is so obvious to me, that these songs have a particularly special message. I've always believed without a doubt that I can give something meaningful to people with what I do. And I won't be stopped from trying to get that message out there. Roadblocks, delays... sore throats or writer's block... whatever. I got this.
Until recently, I almost never said it, because I never felt that sure about anything I was doing. Maybe it's growing older and maturing, or finally doing something during the day that allows me to contribute positively to the world. Maybe it's the recent surge of songwriting I've experienced that's resulting in overtly-inspiring and happy-sounding stuff. Whatever the reason, I've found myself saying I've got a handle on things more and more.
Crossing the 30 line undoubtedly changed my perspective and gave me peace of mind. I'm learning to put aside the worries that plagued me so frequently in my early 20s and embracing the mindset that, 'if it won't matter a couple years from now it's not worth worrying about'. And honestly, that accounts for probably 90% of what I do every single day.
Except on the days where I'm creating music like a mad woman, which has been common lately. I woke up from a lull, a period of time where I just had no energy or inspiration to create anything. And I'm suddenly back in a routine that sees me sitting at the computer for hours at a time, scribbling notes on random pieces of paper and experimenting with melodies that aren't predictable and putting new life into demos I started a long time ago. I forget to eat, to go to bed at a decent hour, all so I can obsessively improve my work. I live for this.
I usually feel like my current in-progress tracks have a special spark, and it's no different this time. But something else is so obvious to me, that these songs have a particularly special message. I've always believed without a doubt that I can give something meaningful to people with what I do. And I won't be stopped from trying to get that message out there. Roadblocks, delays... sore throats or writer's block... whatever. I got this.
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