The Necessary Disconnect
Do you ever feel like you're experiencing sensory overload? Me too. Maybe it's the want to stay informed. Maybe it's daily life. Maybe it's the lack of sunshine in the persistently cloudy part of this country this time of year. Maybe it's the fear of never accomplishing things on my list. Maybe it's just fear, period.
A few blogs ago, I wrote about slowing down. That was such a wonderful phase. I knew it wouldn't last, but I wasn't prepared for how I'd feel when it faded. I am no stranger to self-doubt, over-analyzation and overload. I love to stay in the know, but I hate it (and I think I've written that sentence about ten times since I started blogging).
So guess what? It's time to streamline. I'm not just talking about avoiding certain apps or social networks, though that is part of the plan. I'm talking about life, and everything in it. It's time to get down to the root of what matters.
Sometimes, this is easy. When you're sick, when you go through stuff that makes life harder, it also makes life simpler. You instinctively focus on what's really important. The other gunk and clutter and worry of life simply doesn't exist. You naturally become more relaxed and focused because you know what's real and what's priority.
Then somewhere, after you heal and you get into your routine again, life gets noisy and messy and... yikes. You start wondering what you're doing. You start questioning your motives, your wants, your needs, your progress, your worth. And it all leads to one lingering question that hangs over your head like a cloud: what in the world am I doing with myself?!
So boom, that's it. Stop digging to find out everything. Curiosity is (sometimes) a killer. The important things will find their way to you. Stop looking. Stop obsessing over everyone else's lives. Just stop, and be still.
And keep working on your music (or whatever it is that you love). Keep working/dreaming/living.
A few blogs ago, I wrote about slowing down. That was such a wonderful phase. I knew it wouldn't last, but I wasn't prepared for how I'd feel when it faded. I am no stranger to self-doubt, over-analyzation and overload. I love to stay in the know, but I hate it (and I think I've written that sentence about ten times since I started blogging).
So guess what? It's time to streamline. I'm not just talking about avoiding certain apps or social networks, though that is part of the plan. I'm talking about life, and everything in it. It's time to get down to the root of what matters.
Sometimes, this is easy. When you're sick, when you go through stuff that makes life harder, it also makes life simpler. You instinctively focus on what's really important. The other gunk and clutter and worry of life simply doesn't exist. You naturally become more relaxed and focused because you know what's real and what's priority.
Then somewhere, after you heal and you get into your routine again, life gets noisy and messy and... yikes. You start wondering what you're doing. You start questioning your motives, your wants, your needs, your progress, your worth. And it all leads to one lingering question that hangs over your head like a cloud: what in the world am I doing with myself?!
So boom, that's it. Stop digging to find out everything. Curiosity is (sometimes) a killer. The important things will find their way to you. Stop looking. Stop obsessing over everyone else's lives. Just stop, and be still.
And keep working on your music (or whatever it is that you love). Keep working/dreaming/living.
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